� Charlie Chaplin in “The Great Dictator” (via have-heart-and-faith)

Holding on to a few extra kg’s at the moment, really wishing they’d let go!

I won’t be happy with my recovery untill I can run again!

You spend the longest time building and building getting better and seeing results watching the change happen, it’s the best feeling in the world. Knowing what you can achieve now in comparison to back then, it makes the days you couldn’t walk or sit or stand or lift your arms or hold a cup of coffee worth every second that pain lasted! People who don’t train don’t work out don’t go to the gym don’t understand what it’s like so they don’t care about those things! To have experienced it first hand, it changed me! To have it taken away from me with no say, having to hear it will be four months before I can run again, I know four months is nothing to most people but to me it’s like ten years! it’s crushing, defeating and it makes you feel completely incompetent! This is the feeling I was dreading!

This morning was hard, up until today I haven’t really struggled with my knee the excersise’s have been relatively easy and not had alot of pain! Today was hard and I felt a little defeated when I had to stop and rest! It’s only now kinda sinking in how hard this is really gonna be, when I was doing my bending excersise and I couldnt even activate my quad to pull my leg forward off the ground that was probably the worst! I know I’ll get there just gotta keep going!

Surgery is done and over with I officially have an acl again! My hamstring is the sorest bit at the moment! Actually it just feels super tight like I’ve never stretched it! So I’m two screws heavier! The excersises they have me doing are quite hard still with all the pain but it’s bearable! I just feel a bit spastic! If you have any excersises that you know will help please message me I need all the support I can get and I’m willing to try everything!

The only ability we are born with is the ability to try! You will never know what you are capable of unless you try!

Tomorrow I go in for my knee surgery, whilst it is completely nerve wrecking I’m over the moon about being able to start my rehab and get on the road to training at full strength again!

I don’t run because it will make me loose weight, I don’t keep running because it will give me nice legs, I don’t love running because it will give me a flat stomach… I run because I want to, I keep running because it keeps me sane and I love running because there is nothing better in this world then that feeling when you have just spent the last hour and a half pushing your self to the point where you could pretty much cry only to push yourself through that wall and finish knowing you just fucking kicked some serious self doubt in the ass!

I got up made my food… Went did all my afternoon sessions and trained with my two friends! It humbles me to know how far I’ve come in the last year when I have friends tell me that they wanna be where I am, it makes you never wanna give up!

Today I’m completely exhausted and unprepared.. Haven’t made any of my meals haven’t trained yet, Granted I’ve been up since 4:30 this morning and crashed my car last night so feeling it mentally! Gotta get the ball rolling!